In hopes that I don't get too long winded; Last week, during my binge and right before what I had planned to be an excellent come-up on LSD, my partner called me and told me that she is pregnant with my child. At the sound of her crying words, muffled by phone static and the 300 miles which separate us, I experienced the most sobering feeling of my life. I felt no fear and for a moment, a rushing calm swept though my entire body like liquid Drum&Bass after a rigorous night of dancing.
A month ago, becoming a father would have been unthinkable and terrifying. Though after this Year's Binge I have deeply reflected upon all my experiences with electronic music, clubs, festivals, raves, renegades, after-parties, and undegrounds. I have discovered that electronic music has forged me for this very moment. Electronic music has cut truth into my skin, shown me that nothing is in control and no one is ready. Dancing in front of massive sound systems has shown me the truest form of the present and what is truly sacred. And on my many rides home over the Bay Bridge, when the dancing done and drugs have beaded from my pores, I realize that a sunrise is truly something to live for.
I really have no words to wrap this project up in a concise Hollywood manner. I just feel its time I move away from the drugs and the party scenes. I feel motivated to take my art into different realms and apply it to different technologies. I will most certainly share these stories and teachings to my child and maybe even take them to Desert Hearts one day. In the meantime, I hope the 2017 Binge will bring at least a moment of joy and inspiration to you all in a world of perpetual misunderstanding. That whatever path you take, you find clarity in your music, community, and passion.
Thank you all for your support. -Brian (Pixel-Pusha) Pollett